30.11.10
it's been more than a year since my last post! it's so lifeless here guess no one will probably read this already.
actually i don't know what this is going to be about. i'm just feeling extremely lost and stressed. lost because i don't know what's going to happen to me a few years down the road and stressed because of the harsh and unavoidable reality that awaits. i keep asking myself why the environment at work is so superficial and scary unlike that in school. i mean i don't see a very big difference, we all work together and compete with each other in school too but in school everybody is so much more kind and nice. ah i just don't understand why it must be different. Being nice or not so nice, your job and responsibilities dont change, just continue what you do and things will still get done what right. it isn't like you must be bad to get things done.
ok i don't know what i'm blabbering actually sigh maybe i just don't know anything. i can't imagine having to be in a totally new and hostile environment soon or even now. the transition is so big i feel like i'm being crushed and i can't do anything about it.
like what people tell me, maybe i should enjoy these last, really last carefree days before all of these things crash on me.
but i guess no matter how hard it is i should adopt a positive attitude. ok JIAYOU -goes back to work-
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dennis
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